:::The Journal of a Tyrant:::

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

No fucks will be given in the writing of this journal. I'll probably post random shit here. I keep most of my intel off of all Sites due to hackers and people stealing shit from me. However, when I'm having a shit day, I'll willingly vent here. I have nothing to hide, it's just that some things are personal, and that's the way it should stay.

I'm sure the big question is still lingering about me and Blu. I'm going to answer that right now. We're related. I don't care who knows it anymore, she's not around to really stay much on the subject. She was super against people knowing because it can effect her greatly. She's still ashamed of me in some ways, which is fine. I'm a screw up, I understand. What happens between us is our business. So don't pry at me to know, because I plan on telling people nothing. We're very very close, and that's how things will stay regardless of a website.

I will RP on here with the Circle and perhaps some of you guys. But I will not sexual RP with another female only. Regardless of if we're together or not, Blu is my everything. So my Original Form and Sin Form will RP with no one. Bo doesn't care, but Bo is the idiot that lives in my head so yeah. Moving on.

So this be the Journal of a Tyrant. Enjoy the insanity that will be posted here.

:::Melvin, King of Oblivion:::

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

Godz today was nothing but shit. Seriously can't wait for it to be over. Oh wait - it already is. Ugggggggggggh >.< I'm so fucking tired and I have to be up in less than 8 hours. Going out to the library with Blu and the kids. What fun right? Wrong. We have to meet with a therapist and all that shit. How come? Well because me and Blu look too much alike to be a coincidence. Or whatever. I don't even care who knows what anymore. Seriously. Fuck this shit. I'm so fucking mad, that if I actually don't just mass delete this after I'm done typing it out, I'll be shocked.

Maybe the Site will just get hacked and all this will get deleted. IDGAF. I love attention. Might as well keep at it until I get the attention I so dearly want. But anyways. I'm super fucking tired, super fucking pissed, and super fucking frustrated with life. I had a conversation with some people today, about whether the enemy knows I exist or not, or something lame like that. I don't care what they know. What does it truly mean to exist anyway? Or be alive even? Is it just that one must breathe and feel? Or it is something special, that sets different people and things apart from each other? We're never going to know. Because the most of us are dead, and don't even know how to be alive. Or how to exist.

I exist. I'm the Tyrant King. Everyone loves me, loathes me, worships me, and lusts for me. I exist in places that I shouldn't - but I'm still here. I exist on this earth, covered in circumstances and occurrences, that are better left not written about. But I'm here. But do I exist? Just because I'm sitting here right now, typing this out... do I exist? What does it take to actually matter? Or is that a separate question altogether? Or is it something of direct significance to my question? Someday I want an answer. But I know that I'm never going to get an answer to something like that.

Godz I'm so tired it's fucking retarded. I'm going to just shut the fuck up, go into my room, and get some sleep. I have a place to be in the morning, and sitting here typing out these questions running through my head, is literally getting me fucking nowhere. So fuck that shit. I'm going to just crash and enjoy my nightmares, and pretend none of this horse shit means anything. It's how I get through my days, evenings, and nights. That and lots of alcohol.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

Today was a rather 'meh' day. Not much to report. I laid in bed most of the day, just staring at the ceiling, in between going on and off the Sites and failbook, ninja as shit. Now I'm just kinda sitting here watching this movie, where these kids are facking creepy as hell. Equilibrium, is what it's called. Rather strange way to look at things, but gives good insight to the human mind and just how fucked up people are. Or can be.

The Clerics sure are intriguing. No feeling, just act and do. Rather forwards and that. I like the idea of them. Reminds me of a few people that I know in real life actually. But that's not really important.

Anyways. I don't really have much to say lately.

Got blocked on failbook for a day, that's always fun. Lmao 24 hours because of porno. Duh winning harder. But moving on.

Been feeling like shit lately. Down in the dumps, depressed, what have you. Just the fact that I can't have what I want - and that I had to be this person. I wish that I were greater, in the sense of the living life I have. I wish at times, that things would have worked out differently, so that I could have kept my family together, without fault. I know that it only seems like constant ranting, or just depressive thoughts - but there are some things in life, that I'd surely like to have changed. But that's never going to happen. Never. I'll be fine eventually. It's just hard at times, to accept these things. But no worries, I never stay like this for long. Meh that's all I have to say.

Can't think straight enough to even write this shit out anyways.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

I LOVE how I'm the only one that NEVER posts about his problems. Like seriously. Now this makes me WANT TO just to be a fucking DICK. *RANT MODE ACTIVATED*

K, some of you CF's need to shut the FUCK UP. Your life isn't that bad because you have each other. So stop beating yourselves up, harming yourselves, or sitting there saying people don't care because you're OBVIOUSLY fucking RETARDED for even suggesting that your fellow CF's don't care ESPECIALLY when all they say is JUST HOW MUCH THEY FUCKING CARE.

Siterz. Seriously, just stop. Not the Circle, this is aimed at everyone else. I know you're alone forever, or your parents hate you, or that other people are mean to you. Here's what you do. TELL SOMEONE. Talk to each other, form a supportive group, and GET THROUGH THIS. Why? Because fuck you that's why. Motherfuckers you are ONLY as strong as you convince yourselves to be. So get the fuck up off the floor, patch your injuries, and keep moving forwards lest you wanna be left behind, forgotten or replaced later on. Seriously, grow the fuck up.

Everyonethefuckelse. Just shutthefuckup! You wanna not be alone, fucking join the Fleet. I've told you all ANYONE can join, so sign up and make new friends. Don't sit there bitching about the Siterz biting your heads off, because they're extremely badass people with no lives that sit around and write all day - just like you do. Only difference is, they're not afraid to call each other family.

OTHERS and fellow FUCKS. Seriously? Just shut up and do your damned fucking job. Don't make me tell you twice. If I have to get the fuck up because you're lazy, you're going to get the T in your A'z.

ANYFUCKINGWAYS. Peace the fuck out. Make sure you read this aka motherfucking LET THE WORDS SINK THE FACK IN YOU DIRTAY TWATS!

*End Rant*

~ Melvin the Tyrannical Sinner

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

Fucking bored.

Probably going to start writing with someone. Kinda miss the Original CF's getting off their asses and actually participating in shit. Phoenix and Vice are never around anymore and it's pissing me the fuck off, since they're some of our best writers.

There have been a few times I've seriously considered going back to the Old fucking Site. Fuck that though, that was drama central, almost as bad as fucking FB seriously. Maybe even worse. Who knows. The Mods and Admins were also total wankers most days too. Confusing everyone for everyone and never taking the time to figure out who did what wrong. It was just lame as shit. C'mon I'm lazy. Not THAT lazy. Godz. And there were so many more stalkers on there too. Seriously retarded individuals there.

Anyways. Going to write, molest all of the websites, ect.

SO the usual shit for me. All while my hand, it completely down my pants. Duh winning.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

I do not even have enough FUCKS to give on who reads this shit right now.

I'm fucking pissed, that's no secret.

This Tyrant is really really done with having to hear the same shit over and over. I honestly DO NOT FUCKING CARE about this fucking subject that keeps coming up every other day. It's not even that fucking serious anymore. Shit's been dealt with - so fucking leave it. But no, every single fucking time, it comes up.

You wanna do something about it, be my fucking guest, but until that happens just shut the fuck up. Seriously. I'm so close to raging that I might just destroy the fucking house and everything in it. I have had to listen to fucking females bitch and bitch and bitch... goddamn it's not even worth caring.

I now refuse to care. Hope you're fucking happy. Everything I've done is pointless obviously. Nothing I can do to make shit better and tolerable, then FINE I will not even do that. Ever. I'm never going to care, because the fact is I don't have to. And no one is going to stop me either. This Tyrant is mad, and staying mad. Don't fucking come anywhere near me. EVER.

I'm going to go and blow my stack for a while, and listen to loud music.

Maybe all of this rage will blow over again.

But seriously, I am super done with hearing about this crap.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

Religion.

Wow what a brave first topic. Meh, it's whatever. So let's discuss it. Religion is retarded. People, and humans, are also retarded. And now that we're at an understanding here, let's talk about why.

People kill each other over the stupidest things. Who's "God" is better, or what manner in which you should pray to them, ect. No, just stop. You're actually fucking stupid. There is no "ONE GOD" to think that is completely mother-fucking stupid. Godz are as fucking different as we are, and you wouldn't know one if you fucking saw one, because a REAL God, is too fucking SMART, to show themselves to a stupid fucking human being. Godz are an entirely different race, and when they fuck you all up the ass for fighting over them later, I'll the fuck sitting in the back, laughing at you fools.

There is no correct Religion. ALL of you are WRONG. All of you. There are no fucking RULES and manners about prayer because no God is going to sit there, high and mighty as they are, and demand that someone as pathetic as a member of the human race, pray to them in a specific fashion. Godz have better things to do, then sit there and listen to the shit that comes out of your mouths, and they surely have much more important things to care for, other than HOW you fucking worship them. Pretty fucking sure, that as long as you believe in them, and follow them when they slap you in the face, that you'll be fine. So you can just shut your fucking mouth and stop trying to best each other over it.

HUMANS ARE NOT GODZ. NOR ARE THEY GOOD ENOUGH TO BE CONNECTED TO THEM. So fuck your stupid little people that heard voices, and wrote down whatever they said. They're PEOPLE. Godz just whisper to them, so that they are heard once in a while. And they're special, blessed, and FAR FROM HUMAN. We'll get to that later though.

I see that the most in this Christian bullshit religion. Oh yeah, just pray back to the God and it will forgive you for all your sins, no matter how many you make, if you repent, you're forgive. THAT IS FUCKING STUPID AS SHIT. YOU THINK A FUCKING HIGH-POWERED BEING WANTS TO FUCKING WASTE IT'S LIFE LISTENING TO YOU FUCK UP OVER AND OVER AGAIN? ARE YOU STUPID?! Wait, don't even answer that, you're too fucking dumb to even comprehend these words as it is.

HUMANS ARE IDIOTS! However, there are some humans out there, that appear human, but are not. These are the SCALE OF BALANCE (Okay, the Scale is what Balances Light and Dark, Heaven and Oblivion) 's PERSONAL THINGIES THAT ROAM THE EARTH FOR THE SCALE'S DIRECT REASONS.

That whole humans being connected with Godz is BULL-FUCKING-SHIT. There are just creatures out there, spiritually-inclined, that were placed into human bodies, FOR FUCKING BALANCE.

Also. 99.9% of humans will die and never come back. Why? because they're worthless fucking idiots, that do nothing but argue over pointless shit, again, like religion. The Scale, Heaven, Hell, all of that shit - doesn't want stupid people in their regions. You will NOT be forgiven and you need to practically be fucking FLAWLESS just to get into Heaven. BALANCE MOTHERFUCKERS. THAT'S WHAT IT'S REALLY ABOUT. IT'S NOT ABOUT WHO'S SIDE IS BETTER, IT'S ABOUT WHAT IS FAIR AND WHAT KEEPS SHIT GOING IN A CIRCULAR MOTION.

So you all can just shut the fuck up about your stupid beliefs and just not talk about them, since all of you are fucking fools and wrong as the 9 Hells anyways. IDIOTS.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

MONEY.

Let's talk about money. Ohhhh because it's just so fucking important right? No motherfuckers you are fucking WRONG. You are fucking FOOLS if you think that's what's important. I mean yeah, sure, you need the shit to get food, whatever. But what's actually important aside from essentials, is NON MATERIAL FUCKING THINGS. LIKE IDK, HOW ABOUT YOUR FUCKING FAMILY? FRIENDS? SHIT LIKE THAT EH? YEAH. DUMBSHITS!

I hate humanity. You're all just fucking worthless piles of ash, and you do nothing for anyone other than fuck shit up. Moving the fuck on.

Money makes people greedy, and it detaches them from reality, almost like a video game only worse. You become so fucking wrapped up in that shit that you do nothing other than attempt to spend it, getting things that aren't worth shit, and leaving those that give a shit about your pathetic ass, behind. You're retarded, get your heads out of your motherfucking asses, I am fucking sick of your stupidity.

OH BUT MELVIN. MONEY MAKES THE WORLD GO AROUND.

NO ASSHATS MY TAIL GETTING SHOVED IN YOUR ASS, WILL MAKE THE FUCKING WORLD GO ROUND. FUCKING FAGGOTY ASS BULLSHITTERS. YOU ARE STUPIDER THAN FUCKING DIRT. STOP BEING GREEDY FUCKING WHORES AND CARE ABOUT PEOPLE NOT CASH. RETARDS. IT'S FUCKING PAPER. IDIOTS. MONEY CAN NOT BUY ACTUAL FRIENDS.

AND IF YOU'RE TOO STUPID TO GET FRIENDS AND FAMILY THAT IS YOUR OWN FUCKING FAULT. Dumbasses. We need to go back to the fucking barter system. You people make me fucking sick.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

Let's talk about: HELL.

NO YOU FUCKING MISTAKES WRAPPED IN SKIN, YOU STUPID BAGS OF BONES.

IT'S MOTHERFUCKING OBLIVION, THAT'S THE PROPER FUCKING TERM FOR IT!

I don't expect you humans to understand anything. In every last pathetic religion you come up with, you say that there's this guy in Hell, that's so terrible, that he's wrong and evil.

Okay so we're going to call him SATAN, even though his name is actually " THE CREATOR OF OBLIVION " for humanity's sake, because they're too stupid to comprehend the truth here.

[ Side note: I'm 6 zillion years old, that's like 6 million human years. I'm old as fuck, and I know what I'm talking about, so again, continuing on. ]

So why is Mister Satan so bad?

Well, he gets laid. Like all the time. Please tell me which human doesn't do this? Because we all know that every last 69 year old priest, is a fucking faggot sticking it in an alter boy's ass (for once, I'm not talking about Christopher or Salvation Arclight here).

Being totally serious.

Okay so why else? He tells you to do bad things. Like drugs and shit.

*MELVIN USED RAGE MODE, AND IT WAS SUPER EFFECTIVE*

HUMANS ARE IGNORANT MOTHERFUCKING RETARDS.

NEVER ONCE DID I MOTHERFUCKING SEE THE CREATOR OF FUCKING HELL, GET THE FUCK UP OFF HIS FUCKING ASS, AND GO TO THE 6 MILLION PEOPLE THAT LIVE ON THIS FUCKING PLANET, AND TELL THEM TO FUCKING DO DRUGS, DRINK BEER, AND FUCK THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF EACH OTHER.

PLEASE MOTHERFUCKING TELL ME IF YA SEE HIM, BECAUSE I WANT MY OLD FUCKING CROWN BACK. ASSHOLES! YOU'RE ALL A BUNCHA MORONS!

"But Melvin, they said that in the bible a snake came as SATAN and told the two humans to fuck each other-"

YOU'RE DAMN RIGHT HE DID. WHY? BECAUSE IT FUCKING FEELS GOOD.

HAVE SEX. PLEASE TELL ME IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD.

IF IT DOESN'T, YOU'RE NOT A HUMAN, NOR A CREATURE, AND YOU PROBABLY DO NOT HAVE A DICK OR A FUCKING VAGINA.

USE YOUR FUCKING MOUTH OR YOUR HANDS SOMETHING.

"Satanists are bad people."

REALLY? WELL THAT'S FUNNY BECAUSE THEY'RE ACTUALLY THE MOST FUCKING STUPID HUMANS ON THE PLANET BECAUSE THEY'RE CALLING THEMSELVES SOMETHING AFTER SOMETHING THEY SWEAR DOESN'T EVEN EXIST.

HAVE ANY OF YOU WANKERS READ THE SATANIST BIBLE?

THEY DON'T BELIEVE IN SHIT!

IDIOTS! RETARDS! THEY ARE AS STUPID AS THE REST OF THESE RELIGIOUS DUMBSHITS! RA-DAMN JUST SHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT THE FUCK UP! THEY'RE NOT BAD THEY'RE JUST STUPIDLY FUCKING RETARDED!

"Melvin you are going to Hell for bashing everyone."

YEAH YEAH I FUCKING AM. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I AM GOING TO GET MY FUCKING COCK SUCKED, I'M GOING TO MOLEST THE FUCK OUT OF EVERYTHING, AND I'M GOING TO TURN INTO A BADASS MOTHERFUCKING DEMON THAT WILL MAKE YOU SHIT YOURSELF WHEN YOU SEE ME. BRING IT FUCKERS I KNOW WHERE I'M FROM AND I'M PROUD OF IT.

Humans don't know shit about Hell. Which means, neither do their religions.

Don't talk about a place you've never been formally educated about. I've been there, it's not great for humans and creatures, but like I said, most humans? After they die? They don't even get the pleasure of going to Hell. Your religions know nothing of Hell neither, because RELIGIONS WERE WRITTEN BY HUMANS, IDIOTS. OR PEOPLE FROM THE LIGHT SIDE, CREATURES, HUMANS, ECT, THAT ALSO KNOW NOTHING OF OBLIVION.

SO SHUT THE FUCK UP.

Fact: Real shit isn't written down, you're born with the knowledge. Sit the fuck down you worthless mutts.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

SOCIETY.

OH YEAH, I JUST FUCKING WENT THERE. AND YOU LOT BETTER HAVE YOUR FUCKING ANUSES PREPARED BECAUSE THIS IS ABOUT TO GET NASTY.

I FUCKING HATE, HATE HATE HAAAAAAAATE HUMAN SOCIETY.

Humans are stupid, this is a fact of life.

But let's talk about another reason why. I'm going to attempt to stay calm here, but I make no promises. *Breathes in*

Okay, so here goes nothing.

Society. This is the point of no return.

HUMAN SOCIETY IS MOTHERFUCKING STUPID. HERE THE FUCK IS WHY.

Everyone likes to judge everyone, form little groups, and talk shit about each other. Everyone likes to be popular, and socialize, but in all truth they do nothing but bash each other.

SO I'M HERE TO BASH ALL OF YOU. YOU PATHETIC, ROTTEN BITS OF FLESH BETTER LEFT TO DIE IN A FUCKING PIT OF SHIT.

Here in society it's not about who is RIGHT, it's about who is RICH, who has the most STUFF, who is stronger, and who is faster. There's no GETTING IT DONE PROPERLY, everyone's just sloppy and all over the place or too oblivious to know what the hell's going on in reality. No, this is about money, fashion, and making an ignorant statement, that is going to fall on deaf fucking ears anyways. This is about getting rich and selling the human body, which isn't even worth shit anyways.

YOU ALL ARE FUCKING RETARDED. NO SERIOUSLY!

Money, fame, whatever. Not about truths, family, love, loyalty, NONE OF THAT APPLIES HERE. It's just about what's hot, and what's not, and it's because of THAT RIGHT THERE, THAT I WANT THE WORLD TO END. WAKE THE FUCK UP PEOPLE! YOU'RE DOING NOTHING FOR THE HUMAN RACE EXCEPT GOING BACKWARDS AND BECOMING LESS THAN YOU ALREADY ARE AND THAT IS FUCKING SAYING SOMETHING!

Oh no though. Let's sit there and start drama over Facebook. That's the real way to communicate.

WHAT THE FUCK EVER HAPPENED TO GOING TO SOMEONE'S HOUSE AND PIMP-SLAPPING THEM IN THEIR MOTHERFUCKING FACES? WHAT'S FIGHTING NOT FUN ANYMORE? SOCIETY. JUST STOP. YOUR BALLS CLEARLY DROPPED OFF AND RAN AWAY A LONG FUCKING TIME AGO!

Do the world a fucking favor, and eliminate yourself from it.

We need population control. Keep the semi-smart, be rid of the rest. Then the rest of us might stand a chance at living.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

LET'S TALK ABOUT SEXUAL ORIENTATION.

Alright, so which one of you's actually a faggot?

WHO IN THE ACTUAL FUCK CARES? WHO CARES WHAT YOU LIKE? ARE YOU SO MOTHERFUCKING IMPORTANT THAT THE ENTIRE WORLD NEEDS TO KNOW? AND WORLD, ARE YOU SO MOTHERFUCKING BORED THAT YOU HAVE TO SIT THERE AND CARE WHO TAKES IT UP THE ASS OR SUCKS DICK? ARE YOU SO FUCKING LAME THAT YOU NEED TO SIT THERE AND JUDGE PEOPLE BECAUSE WHAT GETS THEM THE FUCK OFF ISN'T WHAT SETS YOU OFF? GO DIE IN A FUCKING HOLE IF YOU HAVEN'T TRIED IT DON'T SIT THERE BASHING IT!

I get shit all the time, because in real life, I am with 2 males, and 1 female. Honestly, the girl I'm not-so-kinda with, isn't really mine, she's married, and I'm in love with her, and I know she loves me... but like, I love her. Afuckinglot. The males I keep around, yes I care for them, I'll kill anyone who comes near them with bad intentions just as much as I'd do for my hybrid Goddess.

So I keep males around, so that must make me something. Apparently I'm gay. Wait no, I also have a female, so I'm straight - oh wait no that makes me "Bi" or whatever.

NO YOU FUCKING HALF-WITTED LOW-LIFE PILES OF FUCKING SHIT. I AM FUCKING NOT GAY, NOT STRAIGHT, NOT BI I AM FUCKING NOTHING. I AM A FUCKING SHADOW AEON THAT IS IN LOVE WITH WHOMEVER THE FUCK I AM AND IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT SAY IT TO MY MOTHERFUCKING FACE AND WATCH HOW FUCKING FAST I GRAB THIS FUCKING SWORD AND SHOVE IT DOWN YOUR THROAT. AND I DON'T MEAN THE ONE IN MY FUCKING PANTS.

Gender, sex, preferences, none of that matters. Love matters.

Aw the Kingy is being cute........

NO YOU FUCKING PIECES OF SHIT I AM NOT BEING CUTE I AM MOTHERFUCKING EDUCATING YOUR PATHETIC ASSES BECAUSE YOU'RE ALL TOO MOTHERFUCKING RIDICULOUSLY STUPID TO WAKE THE FUCK UP AND REALIZE THAT THERE IS MORE TO LIFE THEN WHO FUCKS WHAT AND LIKES IT.

WE ALL KNOW ALL OF YOU ARE FAGS INSIDE ANYWAYS.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

Tonight is just one of those nights. You know, those nights where you don't know if you just wanna up and leave, and go for a nice long walk... or sit at home, and just put 6 more holes through that back door, that leads, to the bedroom. There's a few things that have me pretty fucking enraged/upset right now, but there's little point in talking about them. I'm not an emotional person, I fucking refuse to be.

Gonna just sit here for a little longer, and think about my options. Honestly, they're crystal fucking clear to me, but there is so much intel in between each fucking option, that I literally have to tip toe around them. I think the fact that I hate this humanoid formation, is a major part that's fucking with me. I bought wings the other day, and I'm special ordering a tail, that looks like my tail. I need to feel like ME, and when I say "ME" I mean the beast living inside this human's body. The truest King of Oblivion, the Sinner himself. I need to be that out here, because it's who I am inside.

This isn't some RP thing, or some phase or whatever these pathetic humans call it these days. Those worthless piles of flesh better left torn up and tossed into a blender. No, this is ME, fucking who I am and I don't give a motherfucking flying FUCK, who the hell thinks it's weird. I fucking went out to Kmart today and grinned and laughed at all the people staring, all the kids, pointing and waving, all the parents scared outta their goddamned minds. Why?

Because I enjoy scaring people? No, because had I been what I truly see myself as.... they would have been scared 666 fold what they were when it was just fake add-ons. So please, fuck this human race. Let it die. We need a vile plague, the Sin Plague, the plague that I have been handing people for eons to meet their demises.

I'm not normally so vocal about things. I'm a pretty chill guy, up and in person. But deep down I am fueled by hate, rage, and pride. I don't normally waste my breath explaining things to these pathetic piles of ash (that is the human race once incinerated, hope it's soon...), because they don't deserve to know shit. I simply laugh in their fucking faces, and calculate my next moves. I am not from this planet, and I refuse to adhere to their pathetic lifestyles and mannerisms. I'm too damned badass for that lame ass shit. Conformity? How about join my Kingdom or die bitch. Now that is conformity. Not this pussy ass "get on the bandwagon" shit. Fuck you, fuck you sideways.

More over things of recent accord. I've been adjusting to having several mates. I mean I always have, but now that RA is back in the picture, I've been noticeably spending a LOT of time with her. Not to say I don't enjoy it, just to say that I need to spend more time with the other three, and then eventually Ryou when she gets down here. Right now this is just a clusterfuck of shit that cannot be sorted, and fighting Sal every night is getting old fast. Not that anyone needed the intel, but again, look how many fucks I give. I've noticed Blu and Chris are super super close, spending almost every second together. Pfft, I miss spending more time with her. So very much...

I'll confess that I broke down earlier because of it. I'm always out and about and she hates leaving the house (I respect why), so she and Chris tend to stay home a lot. I honestly am frustrated with everything going on. If people weren't such worthless faggots at RA's job, I wouldn't have to fucking be there to look out for her. And if Sal didn't fucking work 24 fucking 7, then I'd be able to see him more too.

Anyways fuck you, and there's my rant for the month. Suck it if you didn't like it. I wrote this out more for me than any of you anyways. Peace fuckers, I'm going to bed before I do get up, and punch that wall. Because it's too cold outside to walk.

~King Fuckin' Mel.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

If at First~

I'm always the first person to tell you to hang on, and the last person to admit I'm folding up.


I'm the first guy to tell you to take a chance, the last to say I'm afraid of the unknown roads ahead.


I'm the first of people to tell you that it's alright, and that you'll pull through, I'm just the last person to admit, that I can't get my feet up off the ground.


I'll be the first kid to tell you it's okay to be wrong, that being sorry is good. But I'm the last one to tell you that sorry doesn't mean a thing, because I've heard it too damn much.


I will be the first one to tell you, that righting all your wrongs is the correct answer. But I'll be the last one to tell you, that I've given up on searching.


I'll be the first guy to tell you that your dreams are worth fighting for, but the last one to let you know it's total bullshit and you're going nowhere fast.


I'll be the first person to tell you that shedding tears isn't a weakness, and that even Godz can fall. But I'll be the last one to inform you, that it's a direct shame on my heart.


I'm always the first person to hold out a hand. But I'll be the last one to ask you for yours.


I'm the first person that will admit we're coming to and end. But I'll be the last person to give up and not fight for a new beginning.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

I just got back from a really long everything, so before I come back completely, I have some things that I would like to say to everyone, mainly the Circle, because you know where I stand as King.

I had a bit of a hiatus, and I learned a lot about myself while I was away. I have corrected myself, and I have finally opened my eyes, once again. I realized that I was treating some of my mates unfairly, and I can't stand for this - I won't. Each of them are special to me, and none of them, aside from one of them, gets the honor of having the right to steer me in another direction.

Well that happened last night. Blu and I talked, and she straightened me out. I realized that I've not been paying attention to her like I should, I realized that I was abandoning Sal and Chris far too often. I realized that I should try harder to talk with Ryou, because she's far away, in another country. I was spending time with only one of them, just because they were always there, and it was wrong, because others need me too.

And to the Circle, I must say I'm grateful for. The Upper CFs here have been my strength and support where I've needed it, and I'd leave the entire Circle on the globe to the lot of them here, because like Blu - they see clearly. Each of them was selected within reason, with a purpose, and meaning. And each of them, are going through their lives, figuring out what those things are. They're learning why I brought them here, what I saw in them the moment I met them.

And they're getting better at exposing those things, and facing their fears.

Last night while I was out, I missed something real important. Had I not been able to contact the house, I might have shed tears over this. Chris spoke last night, on his own, and without the help of others. He did it because he felt strongly, about everyone in the house here getting along. Now how can we not honor this moment, by continuing from where we left off, and doing better by ourselves, as he did? It's in the greatest moments that the little things matter, and something so small and speaking one's mind, in that moment, could have changed the world.

Our world, because we all know that this world doesn't matter.

I want to see changes, and I'm not going to accept anything else. I want to see honor, trust, respect, love, and loyalty from here on out. I will not show emotions, to anyone that does not do this. I will not tolerate or show remorse for anyone who cannot do as I have asked. Such a small thing to ask really, whereas others as for insignificant material things. I am different now, I have changed back into what I am supposed to be. I am strong, and I am wise, and I cannot allow myself to fall into the Pits as low as I did last night. I will man the fuck up, and be everyone's strength, but everyone first - needs to be each other's strength before they need mine.

So with this, I end my speech. And I stand tall and righteous like never before. I am guiltless, and unafraid, and intelligent, and willing to do what's needed. If it were not for Salvation giving me all that shit, I don't think I would have woken up from my habits. Perhaps a slap to the face, means more, than just the sound. Perhaps, it's a wake up call, and not an abusive measure. Whatever the case, I am thankful, that it happened. I needed this. I needed a reason to stand up and turn around and pull my own head outta my ass. But at the same time, I expect all to stand behind me, in the same manner as I stand before you here now.

I will be back around in a few hours. Right now I'm cleaning up a few things, and straightening the fuck out. I'm going to continue to spend the afternoon with Salvation, so that we can talk and such. I was just stopping in to let everyone know that I'm finally okay again. I dare you to change this too, because with how Bluey is, she might bite off someone's head. I won't address what happened early this morning however. She will handle that how she sees fit. I do however, wish to play Ghosts tonight, if Blu allows.

See you all soon. Stay boss.

Yourz Truly,

Your Tyrant King of the Scale.

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

/Pasted because effort. UNF.

So I have to message some people about intel, but my messages just stopped working so I'm going to post this here since it's just intel that everyone knows anyways. Feel free to ignore this, as only the people tagged are whom it's being directed at. So just what does it take to be one of the Tyrant's Mates?

Well I'm going to tell you all today, in a fatass novel of explanation. Please be seated and try not to touch anyone's tails. Moving on...


Okay. What is a "mate" first of all? Well, where I come from (translated into the human language anyways), a mate is someone much more respectable then a just an ordinary boyfriend, girlfriend, fiance, husband or wife. Why? Because all of those things can break up with each other. A mate is someone who mates for life (in my translation) and never leaves anyone regardless of any given situation.


My most valued mates are the twins and Bluey, for reasons I can't really explain out here in public. It's a personal thing. Ryou and his twin are also important, and RA is as well.


/Due to the fact RA is a new mate from the rest, and wasn't acting like the others (like how they are supposed to, not how humans do), that was the only reason I had thought of splitting off from her. She was not with me nearly as long as the rest were. Though we've worked that out so no worries there. Moving on./


I'm not just looking for someone who is going to be with me.


It goes deeper than that. I'm looking for someone who is strong, has a backbone per say, and presents outstanding loyalty. Someone who obeys me without question, as I am their King and that's my job is to say what to do, and theirs is to curate (take care of) the Kingdom, and follow my "orders". The three at the top (whom I call my God - Blu, and the Angels - the Twins) are the only ones who may question me. More so Salvation and Blu, because they are the most vocal.


My mates work together sometimes as a democracy too, which means at times when they need to make a choice for me (when I am unable) they vote on what the best idea is. Normally is boils down to who's on Blu's side, and who is on Sal's. Up until the other day, they were almost always opposing forces. There are also times, when Chris will step forwards and say something, if he truly feels that something is wrong. Most times, I will respond rather well to this, from the other two. Blu tends to back him up. His twin brother is just an asshole.


Being a mate is not easy. As putting up with someone who is a dick 24/7 tends to be something that pushes people away. It's not "fun" all the time, and it's more about loyalty and gratitude then it is anything else. Love, emotions, feelings - that shit gets set aside only after the greater things have been decided using one's mind. I cannot stress it enough.

The ONLY severe difference between the Mates and my Kingdom, is that my mates reserve the right to be closest to me in a loving, desirable manner. Their reward for being my most valuable guardians, their rewards for constantly doing as I say, and proving that they are the top for the Kingdom - is that they get to be with me. Only the strongest get such an honor, it's just the way things work.

So again, please reconsider trying to get with me. It doesn't work like that.
Also, each and every one of my mates has a bit of a rank. Due to the fact that Bluey is my Number 1, and that I call her my "Wife", the "Queen" or the only other one allowed to force a choice before my hand - she gets to stay at the top. If she doesn't get along with my mates, or someone (a friend, family, ect) then I will do my best to stay out of her way, and never stand between them. If Blu feels strongly about something, whether or not I "feel" it, I will listen to her, because she's proven hands down - to know what is best for me.

The second spot goes to Salvation. Most of you don't know it, but I've been with him the longest, before Bluey even. He's the biggest fucking pain in my ass since Oblivion, but goddamnit no man's honor is as strong as his. Salvation is overly honest and will tell me how it is no matter what, and for this he's gained eternal respect.

Chris is tied with Salvation, the two are twins yes, but they are so very different from each other. Salvation is a flip, which means he goes from being a dominant pain in the tail, to wanting to get fucked in the ass >.> Chris though, he's a push over, but at least, stands up for what is right. For me, and for the rest. He has always proven to step in when no one else would. And, as always, he stands up for everyone in the Kingdom, even when no one else will. Normally, he stands beside Blu. (Recent events however - Chris asked me to keep him out of it, as he did not wish to cross paths with Blu, a respected choice of course...)

After such, we get to Ryou, and his twin (who I'll touch base with eventually. This is my unmentioned mate, for reasons I will not disclose in public at this time). Ryou and his twin give their all to serve their King. Salvation has groomed the both of them with the ideal of the "perfect" little servants. There is a long history between us all, that I will not get into - but they set aside everything for me. And they love their "parents" who are Blu and the Twin Angels (because that's how we run things in my Kingdom everyone's family somehow). These two have proven to be there for me whenever the others cannot, or whenever the others are forced into making hard choices and need the alone time to think them out properly.

Beyond that is my Summon. The God of RA, who I haven't been with for long enough to rank her alongside Ryou and his sister. She has had a lot of trouble adjusting to the situation, like anyone else walking into this mess would have. Over the course of the passing months however, she's proven that she'll always be there - most times. She tends to do a lot of things that I don't like, but somehow mysteriously, gets away with a lot of it. Which tells me that my feels for her are rather great, though dangerous to the rest. I am rather careful with this mate, but I value her just as the others. Whenever the Kingdom has issues I normally go to her and speak to her about it, much like I do with Ryou and his sister. Blu and the Twins normally have their hands full in dealing with it, so it's nice to have RA to talk to. We have good times and horrid ones, but she's here to stay.

My mates at the top, Blu, and the Twins, are the ones that run my Kingdom in the background. Without them, I am nothing, and at times still I feel like just a figurehead to everyone. But they are the ones working in the dark, and the ones that I will trust my Kingdom to when I fall or bust my shit. As you can see this is why they are held in such high reguard - and as you all can see, being with someone like myself - isn't so easy. But we are a family, and a family we will be. For better and worse - and worse.

[Tagging enough people for this to flag to all the CFs]

Hope all the readers enjoyed that intel. Feel free to rape me with a thousand likes.

-Your Tyrannical King, Melvin

[Melvin Louie-Leon]

I know I love you, but I just can't stand looking at you sometimes. No fucking clue why. I can't even bare to talk to you, without getting irritated as fuck. Doesn't make sense. I guess all I see is everything before. It's hard to convince BO and the Dragon to see anything else. You can only pretend to be happy for so long before it goes back to how it was before. Meh, whatever. So much hate flows through these veins that it's fucking impossible for me to see this as worth it. The fact of love and pain, is the only thing letting me hold on. Sometimes, I just wish that would fade. I know there is better for me out there. What to do what to do... I will just stick things out, and hope for the best, for now.

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